What’s your excuse for losing temper?

Anger/Rage/Fury is one of the worst forms of emotional outburst. It leads to displeasure & a whole lot of bitterness. We blame it on circumstances, stress, anguish, etc. I have observed at times, it’s also due to my irregular and skipping meal habits that I become a little irritable. Reluctantly I guess, we vent it on our loved ones. 

All we do with our angst is that we lose our moment; rather spoil other’s moment too. We may have our share of troubles/pressures but it’s really unfair to shed it on someone else. If it’s my fault I ensure I apologise before it’s too late and make up for it. Also, I realise life is too short to squander o’er teeny-weeny things.

We can… may be try….& control our anger and make our lives and others peaceful.

Life’s Ordeal

My heart ached & I choked,
eyes brimmed with tears,
a flare of distant memories,
& I trembled with fear,
that I would go weak,
needless to say, all seemed bleak.
I pulled through myself,
clearing the moist of my eyes,
unleashing all, life’s mere ordeal!

Mighty flowers

The road was strewn with flowers,
a colourful stream of paraphernalia,
amidst the peril of heat & dust.
And I walked through them,
carefully treading not to crush,
the fresh flowers lay there,
wrought with crowning beauty.

I picked them gradually as the dusk set,
it was strewn all withered & laid lifeless!

Allopath Vs Ayurved

It has been tough for the past few days. Have been taking my mom to doctors, diagnostic centers, giving medicines, taking second opinion and what not. I guess, it has got do with her advancing age. She has been diagnosed with Osteoporosis and already has arthritis. As i have mentioned earlier, I am extremely attached to my mom and even if there’s slight discomfort I get panicky. Candidly speaking, I do not believe into Allopath too much especially the drugs and treatment that the doctors of current times prescribe. Yes, I agree that there’s tremendous advancement in the field of technology but at the same time, the greed for more money, commercial success is of prime importance for people today & not the sensitivity.

Firstly take appointments and still wait for 2-3 hours. Then deal with their attitude, they don’t care even if the patient is in immense pain. Tell me, how much it costs to talk to the patients in a generous way? He wasn’t rude, but if you be more personable I feel it makes a difference and boosts the patience confidence to fight any disease.  Earlier, specialists used to ask the symptoms and then prescribe medicines but these days, the doctors after doing the basic check-up would write a list of tests done from some “referred diagnostic center” (Quoting this since I have heard they have tie-ups for some commercial profits) and then prescribe medicines based on the reports. Yes, it has its own merits which i don’t deny. But in a span of 10 days 15-20 tests? 5-6 kinds of blood tests. My heart aches to see that needle pierce into her delicate veins while extracting blood.  

After the reports, a series of analysis takes place, eventually concluding to provide some pain killers and very high dose of medicines. All of us would agree I hope; that pain killers/ heavy dose have severe effect, both physically and mentally. It may give you instant relief but has adverse effects in the long run. At least that’s what I feel.

Today I lost it completely, after hours of waiting the doctor finally recommended her some steroid (Aclasta), knowing that the drug has some side-effects. It doesn’t matter much to them, if God forbid something happens. I became restless, thinking what I should do, what I should avoid so that she gets relief from the pain.

Finally, I consulted a few friends and found out that Ayurvedic Treatment is best for joint pains and has no side effects as such. In fact the doc made me feel comfortable saying “Please don’t worry, this is curable & in a herbal way”. I felt glad hearing those words of hope. At least i want to try this.

Hold my hands…

When times are hard,
Just hold my hands,
When life is agonizing,
Come hold my hands…!
When I would fall weak,
Come hold my hands,
When i cry inconsolably,
Just hold my hands.
I need some strength, I need you,
When nothing would seem right,
Come hold my hands!

Holding hands firmly of your loved ones at the times of distress endows enormous strength. The Strength to overcome the tough times, strength to fight and win.

Terribly distressing …

it is, when you want to gulp down a chilled drink or creamy-rich-chocolaty ice-cream in a scorching, sultry day and you have to restrain just because you have a bad cold/cough.

Isn’t????

I have a chronic sinus problem & it’s getting on to my nerves …I know there are medicines but that’s such a temporary relief…after a few dayz it’s back to square one…besides this..have to avoid frozen favourites(Minus Colas which I dont like)

:)

Moonlit Night!

The trees are bathed,
and so are the lanes,
in a silvery sparkling moonlit night.
I gaze at it with wondering eyes,
as my heart heaves in sight.
It’s radiance dazzles me,
and I dance in the moonlit night.
Oh! Its beauty is cascading now,
& I am soaked in it all the more!

Love of my life!

Tiny … cute little face,
with innocence in her eyes,
wearing a sweet smile,
thumps her little feet,
as she comes nearby!
A bundle of joy she is,
an angel & love of my life!

Life seems blessed when my two year old niece would open her arms wide to embrace me after i return from a tiring day at work. I hug her tight & then with her naughty smile she would say timidly whispering into my ears, “what did you bring for me?”  :) As i rummage through my bag to take out her favourite candies …I can’t express how gleefully she dances around as if the world’s at her feet on getting those candies!

I know i am spoiling ;) but then am selfish as her smile brings a smile on my face too :)

Traffic Signal

These days Hyderabad traffic zones are flocked by so called eunuchs. Nothing against them personally, provided they are “real”. I somehow get a feel that it’s a racquet, they masquerade themselves to earn a few easy bucks. And, I hate it even more when they try and nudge to extract money. Passengers travelling by autos or bikes bear…most of the brunt. Cheating someone in any form I feel is incorrect.

I have never supported begging especially those who are physically fit, not sure what they would do with the money…whether they would buy themselves a drink/tobacco/meal?  I would prefer buying them a meal BUT not give away money! Also, have heard/seen so much that I find it tough to believe but do feel guilty at times what if someone genuinely needed for an emergency!

A special day, a special note!

Sometimes as daughter, sometimes sister,
Sometimes wife, sometimes mother,
Sometimes home & sometimes at work….
Roles that we play with immense ease & comfort!

We conceal our pain to bring a smile on others,
We nurture relationships and value them to the core,
Can love passionately & care relentlessly,
Woven with compassion & a heart that’s pure,
It isn’t easy the life we endure…

We women epitomize strength & character…
We deserve to be celebrated…
….being woman & our womanhood!

Here’s wishing all women out there “A Happy Women’s Day”!!!  

Cheeers!!

Recent additions!

Went to a bookstore and picked up a few books most probably for weekend reading. I get so fascinated by book stores, that end up buying at least a book or two for my future personal library (of course for current reading too) – a room with long french windows opening to a beautiful yard, a coffee table and a rocking chair with books of choicest selections all over.

A fact it is!

Loss of a loved one in life leaves a void but they don’t depart…they form an inseparable part of our lives & the bond gets Only richer with each passing day!

- For two of my friends, one who lost his father and the other who lost his child.

Something to think about?

First I was dying to finish my high school & start college,
And then I was dying to finish college and start working,
Then I was dying to marry & have children,
And then I was dying for my children,
to grow old enough, so i could go back to work,
but then i was dying to retire,
and now i am dying…
And suddenly i realized i forgot to live!

Please do not let this happen to you! Appreciate your current situation and enjoy each day!

To make money we lose our health,
and then to restore our health we lose our money….
We live as if we are never going to die,
and we die as if we never lived!

—- Says an Old friend

A forward email message says so…! If there were not these doses of motivation, am sure our life would have been even more stressful. They are kind of capsules for our cerebral health…! Read them or remember them and then move on brushing everything aside for a new day…a new ride …!!